Sensational discovery

In a world where my senses overload

my body, brain and emotions feel like they might implode.

not being able to cry and scream, you do realize I am not what I seem.

Behind this mask I display for your comfort, making my life exhausted from the effort.

Hoping you don’t see me glitch. I walk out the door and flip the switch.

Automated survival to get through the day, by following along with what you say.

My insides contemplate this internal debate, I am not what you think during this state.

Overwhelming emotions I am unable to process and understand.

You can relate through struggles, as if, automatically planned.

Manually I reciprocate but I am unable to connect, so I withdraw and disconnect.

Searching in determination for understanding, only to be met in a world that is so demanding.

Noise, Sight & Sound make my brain shut down.

Trying so hard to be functional but my body is different and unconventional.

Life is so fast pace, sometimes I wonder if I can keep up with this race.

Copyright by E. Jane Kraxberger

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